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News flash, You’re Never going to feel “Good Enough”
This project is called North Point, these are hotel/condo/retail mixed-use projects. This is a master planning model of the entire site and surrounding city.
I did this work back in 2003 when I spent the post 9 11 recession as a professional architectural model maker – that’s hand-built work for the young folks.
Unfortunately, due to carelessness on my part caused by a lack of self-worth, I did not record any details about the project.
Funny right?
How our self-worth shows up in little ways, like devaluing our work so much that we fail to show it to ANYONE or to even document the details of such work.
It might sound hard to believe…
Maybe, if this is your first time here, you’re thinking “yeah right! I can smell the fake modesty a mile away!” If not, then maybe looking at my work causes you to question “did she REALLY” make this?! Yes, I did.There’s so little I have documented through the years due to not seeing my worth, not wanting to be a show-off, feeling that if I did I was “attention-seeking” which also meant I was bad.
I force myself to dig up what little bits I can find and share those works now.
Honestly – It’s the SCARIEST thing to me!
The fear of being seen or drawing attention to myself is a “survival fear” that tells me “don’t ever stand out”
Small = safe.
BUT, yes yes there’s a but here – my lack of documentation is also because I love the process of creating so much that the end of a project is merely that, – the end.
Today I am being brave.Today I am giving you a part of me- my art.
Maybe it’s because I’m taking part in the Tony Robbins “Comeback Challenge.” or maybe it’s because I’m tired of playing small!
The things I want are BIG.
Those dreams require that I step out of the shadows; into my spotlight to share my gifts & knowledge.
They require me to take risks, in hopes that I can inspire even only one of you to be brave enough to be you too.
You make you.
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Welcome to StudioMaek!
StudioMaek is where I share my stories to inspire you to rediscover the creative you. While you make art, invent, plan and dream big ideas, we’ll work together to dispel limiting beliefs and step into our authentic selves. You make. Make you. – I’m making me too.
Mae’s Story:
I’m a dreamer, designer, inventor, mentor and a life-loving info sponge who believes that NOT following your dream will actually kill you!
I spent the first half of my life as a workaholic, perfectionist who found safety in staying small – a suit of “armor” that saved me from bruises as a child & later, lead to a successful career too!
1997 I began college. I studied art, architecture and psychology – landed a career at a prestigious architecture firm on my 22 birthday in 2000. I was GREAT at being really good and playing really small (and I’m not talking about my 4’11” stature.)
Like the Wizard of Oz, my work anonymously made it into school halls, gallery displays, on webpages & television and even into a glass case at the museum; all while I stayed safely behind the curtain. By 25 I was a pro at being busy! Full-time architect, full-time student & That’s the year I started mentoring artists and critiquing their work in my free time.
Do you remember the “The Field of Dreams?” That movie awakened passion in me – fueling my love of the creative process and the message of possibility inspired me. Imagine a world where we support each other to make dreams come true!
But, the film’s “If you build it they will come” message, rang true too.
When I am good enough they will come – They who love me, they who confirm my right and worthiness to exist; Yet never pausing to wait for approval or disapproval. Instead,choosing to run from the vulnerability of being seen and onto the next thing. Fearful to stop moving , fearful of being seen, fearful of being worthless.
It took a brain aneurysm to change my ways, a do or die permission slip that said “Be.” From 2016 – present I’ve spent my days creating, researching, and rediscovering all the parts of me that are truly me & now I want to share the journey with you.
At StudioMaek we’ll work together – facing fears, dispelling limiting beliefs and building courage so that you can start that business or get a patent for your 3am idea all while you rediscover who you are. The passionate you. The creative you. The authentic you. The adventurous child, full of vibrancy and in love with life. The you that was you before the world told you you weren’t.
